Overcoming Obstacles

    I fell off from doing good while considering in my thinking that I had overcame my past. Boy, was I mistaken. I had let the demonic in, was dealing with generational curses, and it was wrecking havoc on my life. Needless to say, I was living a bad life in many different areas of my life for a long time. I had believed the lies of the enemy and was addicted to many different things. I suffered depression and was an alcoholic. So I lost everything, and every one. I believed that no one wanted me around. I thought no one one cared, so I shot myself in the head, but failed at killing myself. Obviously, God wasn’t done with me. I had spent a long time in the hospital and or rehabilitation of one sort or another. It was put it on my heart that I would go to Moody Rehabilitation in Lubbock and when I got out of there I would be better on all aspects of life physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. When I got out, I had no place to go. My fiancée, although we weren’t together at the time, came to the hospital to see me. God must have put us back together because she hasn’t left me. She got me an apartment set it up and is paying all of the bills.

     It is still really hard for me to be fully dependent on God because all of my life I had been completely independent. So in a weird way, I’m glad that this is happening to me because I really did needed to slow down, humble myself, and get a new outlook on life, like a hard reset or reality check.

     I truly had to die, so that I could be reborn a new man. I know that has Jesus in my heart and with the help of saint Basil, I know that people do care about me. He is a great man of God. He lead me through deliverance and showed me that I don't have to face my problems alone. He showed me that I have Jesus to walk with me. He showed me the meaning of my name as well. For every problem that I have, he showed me where to look for the answer in the Bible and even gave me material that I could share with other people that are going through the same situations that I have overcome.

    I still struggle every day. But now, I face the struggles with the knowledge that everything must be done for the glory of God. The enemy can no longer has a hold on me if I don’t let him.

Note (1). Some of the content was edited for grammatical clarification.
Note (2). Paul still experiences various obstacles from mental and physical injuries.